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I felt a little down yesterday. I found out my aunt told one of her other daughters about my cousin donating to me. I decided with her knowing and my donor's DD knowing (she asked me before she told her) I better tell my sister and mom. I can't explain how I felt. It was almost like I was ashamed. I can only chalk it up to grief. I still don't think I have come to terms with the fact that I am 33 and will not be able to have anymore babies with my own eggs. I have definitely decided to go throug… Continue

Last week my husband's car died. We found out we were going to either have to replace the engine or buy a new car. I knew this meant disaster for our IVF plans. After much thought, I asked my cousin if she would donate her eggs. She offered to do it after our first cycle attempt, when I had empty follicle syndrome. She told us today that she will donate. I am so relieved! I finally feel hopeful again! Our chances of having a baby are so much better now! She is only 25 and has no known issues. I… Continue

My IVF cycle for July was cancelled, due to poor response. Then my Sept. cycle didn't even get started because I ovulated through the suppression meds. Due to a trip out of state, we were told we would have to wait until November to start another cycle. Now I am not even sure if it will be able to happen. My husband's car is in the shop and it sounds like we may be forced to by a new car now. I feel like God is telling me I am not meant to have a baby this way. I just want to crawl in a hole, bu… Continue

Where is Aunt Flow? I have no idea when she is supposed to show, but I went off bcps on June 28th for my July IVF cycle. We canceled that cycle on July 8th, and I stopped taking all meds. I took OPK for about two weeks, no ovulation. We continued trying for about a week after that though (I didn't bother buying any more OPKs. I wasn't sure if they would even work, with all the stims in my system.). I have still not seen Aunt Flow! I have no idea when I should expect her, but I would have thought… Continue

Having Secondary Infertility is so frustrating. You would think having one child already would make going through this easier. I should feel content with the child I have and not stress/obsess/cry over not being able to have another child. That just isn't the case.

Something I was thinking about the other day is how it can sometimes be worse for women with SI than women who are suffering IF. We don't have the option to avoid places where pregnant women and women with multiple children flock. I… Continue