Picking Lauren up from preschool last fall was always a dicey affair. Two of the other Moms had just had babies and so just being in the same hallway as them could prove very difficult for me. I am sure they thought I was quite surly, never really engaging them in any conversation and quickly rounding Lauren up and out before she could fawn over their little ones. Lauren, you see, LOVES babies. As the weeks progressed I still found it very hard but was better able to compose myself. Then another… Continue

I THOUGHT last month had gone great, that I actually ovulated. I probably did. But of course, I had premenstrual bleeding...again. And now I get to deal with something new - post menstrual bleeding. 8 days and still going now. So I guess this month is shot. I don't know what's going on. I hate constantly going to he doctors office. I'm a friggin patient and feel like I am so low on their list of priorities. I wish I had another option for a doctor. I figured I was ready to try again this month,… Continue

I was really hoping this month. I finally added B6 to my diet and it made a huge difference. I ovulated this month. Everything was timed just right. And just like normal I am spotting 6 DPO. I know I need to wait til next week and I can keep telling myself that maybe I still am, I never know until I see red, but really I do know and it hurts. I didn't want to hope as much as I did this month but I did anyway. We are now officially at 3 years of trying. I get blessings from my husband that say to… Continue

I made it through all my medications: femara, Gonal F, and Novarel. Surprisingly I didn't go too bad with them. Little side effects and I did a fairly good job keeping my emotions in check. I find it interesting that I havn't had a migraine since my second day of femara. That is really good for me! Although I have been battling with a terrible cold. I had my US/follicle check done on christmas eve and it showed a good uterine lining. The right ovary had 2 follicles at 20 and 13 and the left had… Continue

We just found out that we are not pregnant after our second IUI. I just don't understand. It happened so quickly with my first one. It is just so hard to keep on going every month with such disappointment. I never thought I would have just one. And everyone one of my friends just keeps getting pregnant, a couple on accident. I am so jealous. The one thing I can't give my child, a sibling. My son has no cousins and no siblings, I feel so bad for him, at family gatherings he doesn't have any child… Continue